MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, August 25, 2005~~

*dust, dust and more dust*

Argh!!!!!! So many thousands...millions dustmites on moi bloggy...whoa! 10 days din blog sia!

*takes duster...broom...vacuum cleaner...mop...and suck up and wipe out all invaders of me bloggy*

Tada! Squeaky clean now! *proudz* ^^

Okok...i noe wad u r gonna say...L-A-M-E..haha..i noe! But who cares man! Dun roll ur eyes..i jus saw ya doin tt again...haha..

Anyway, 10 days nv step in here..STILL din wanna step in de. But tink i shld jus type a lil' sth for my readers. Every has been so hectic these few wks man. Lyk weeks jus pass lyk days lar! 1 moment i see myself having due dates for all the pros..den next moment see myself preparing for CCT..and tis coming mon start of pract exam le! Next wk study break, following wk EXAMs! *double faints* wad's goin on man! i tink 1day is NOT = 24hrs anymore. Can sum1 jus throw in a claim that 1 day is LESS than 24 hrs and let dumb mathematicians and free pple overthrow tis NULL hypothesis? Argh..i m goin mad.

Been saying tis lyk 1000's of times n i m gonna say tis again. i m lyk running out of time lar! i m SOO dead lar. Lyk gonna die or sth. SO disorganised. SO disoriented, SO busy. SO panicky. SO tired. SO sick. SO troubled. SO in need of help la. But also dun hw to say it out.

And i realised tt i hav been holding e honourary job of a dustbin. evrey1's everytink thrashed out on me. I seriously dun mind. But i feel lyk extra helpless if i cant help dem too. Lyk if its within my limits i can la. But sometimes i jus cant. I can be ur 100% listener. But i cant be ur 100% saviour. i jus feel worse if i cant help. but surprised and even a lil' glad tt some pple are willing to open up themselves slightly to me when i least expected it. Altho' not much, but glad cos tt person indirectly helped me quite a bit sometime along e way too. haha.

haiz. today tio scolded again. Fone bill hit abt $80. And tis is still rebated. And discounted aft minusing abt tons of free incoming and sms. DO i TOK leisurely tt much? AM i really tt busy? I really dunno man..so stuffed. Lyk i m onli a student lar. Hw atrocious for me to hit 100 plus bills lar! And watsmore tis is happening when my family is goin thru financial crisis rite now. Great. Double impact on tis. Make me feel more guilty. Everytime when it comes to $ matters, i jus wanna avoid it lar. I wanna jus be e innocent child who doesn't need to hear anytink abt it and go on happily with my life lar. But i ALWAYs get bombarded wif it.

the next tink i noe it e topic jus drift off and implicate other matters and make me totally off-mood and pissed. sorri if u dun c e link of wad i said cos i nv pen down wad happened.

anyway, recently did survey, and results turn out tt i can be half e most bubbly person among my clique but also prone to be a loner of e world. haha. Contradictory? told ya i hav split personality. haha.

Um..Yest my guitar string snapped. and i jus got no mood to c 5 remaining strings there and i snap all the strings immediately. Stressed? Ehz..no..haha..jus doin weird tinks. But heng i got extra set of strings at hm. Tie lyk shit cos i feeel lyk playing the guitar the next moment so much. haha. Play old songs dat i knew and a few new wans tt i tink its too hard for me but i jus feel lyk trying...haha.

Today, woke up late. And went to eat breakkie wif parents. Finally aft duno hw long. And dad suggest tt i change my POSB card to the new blue wan cos its nice. Next moment, he took my card and break it. WAH RAOZ..diao lor. Den went to tt person and she suggest close tis acc cos its joint btw my mum..and yada yada. SO we decided to close it. But cos its linked to giro for NP so it will take a mth to transfer. And GREAT, it means i gotta go SDAR and FINANCE dept to declare..MORE WORK. THANKS ARH DADDY...=.=.. now i m ATM-card-LESS. Until a week later. haiz. SIanz..haha.

Tml long day again and got guitar aft..maybe i shld jus bring my work and do there...haiz..alex so late den start..really need to do work leh..everyone's startin...onli me...

"i m a BIG stubborn molecule"

U if u noe who u R: Sorry if i sorta ignore ya sometimes..wan to tok but i cant...maybe u r rite, i m a meanie..i need help..change me? lolx...sorry yea? tc kkz. get well soon. text me if ya wan. cya soon.

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